My Plan in this year

In July last year, I defended my thesis in front of two professors: Prof. Matthias Jarke from Informatik 5 RWTH Aachen and Prof. Marcus Specht from Open University, Heerlen. After defending my thesis, I encountered another crossroad of my life. Would I continue my degree to higher level, e.g., pursuing Ph.D. degree or working in industry.

Then, I applied to several companies, from small to big enterprises. And you know what, they rejected me ^^ With several reasons, like:
1. Due to visa problem. They expected me to have a working visa. However, I can not give them one since I only have temporary visa. I could have a working visa, if I could show a working contract to Germany Foreign Ministry. So its like chicken-egg problem. I cant get working visa since I dont have a working contract, and I cant have a working ontract since I dont have a working visa.
2. Financial crisis. A company manager has promised me a position within his company. He really needs a capable (ehemm.. :p) programmer to work in a project in his company. We have discussed the project and almost came to a conclusion. However, suddenly global financial crisis came and suddenly the project got canceled and he could not offer me the promised position.
3. German languange. Naturally, if you want to work in german company, you need to be able to talk and write fluently in german. Or at least you could communicate using german language. And that is my weakest point. I hardly could talk german at all. I know several words and idioms but I have difficulty to use it fluently. My grammar sucks
4. Found another more suited candidate: Na ja...can not complain about this ^^

Wow..suddenly I already wrote a lot. Anyway, after encountering problem to go into industry, I tried to do Doktorand or Ph.D. I applied to some university and I received some rejections. There is one professor who eagerly asked for someone to work on his project and naturally I applied for that position. He and his colleagues interviewed me then said that he would give me an answer within 2 weeks. Four weeks passed by without any news. When I asked him again about it, he said "I would talk to my colleagues about you". What the!!!!! I got disappointed and I stopped pursuing the position within his project.

If Allah has decided, then it'll happen. I applied for Ph.D. position again..this time, I applied to outside Germany, Austria. I was accepted with condition: I need to have a scholarship. Alhamdulillah, I got it. I would start my phd career on november 2009. I hope I could succeed. I am still anxious n afraid of what would come. I could only pray for the best and strive for the rest ^^